so clean and fresh tra la la
got all my results back and i am 100% disease free!!! so one day should i ever meet prince charming at least i'll be starting on a clean slate...
onto other news: i think i am finally getting over CS but slowly, oh so slowly but steadily. the reason i say this is not because i don't still think about him (i do) and not because i don't love him (i do but its not a holding back kind of love anymore, now its more of a 'he was my first love and for that i probably will always love him) its because i am actually starting to feel excited about the thought of starting a new relationship with some lucky guy.
you see, while me and CS were doing our on/off relationship the mere thought of seeing someone else and even sleeping with another guy made me sick to my stomach but recently these thoughts have beeen cropping into my head and i start to feel butterflies at the mere thought of meeting some great guy and the excitement that one feels during these moments.
so that is why i think i am starting to get over him. its been gradual and a long time coming but it had to happen even though i didn't want to get over him. ever. i truly believe i am starting to get over him just because i can see myself dating someone else one day and sharing my ever so slightly kinky ways with him!
so go me!
p.s. i might be seeing CS tonight because we play sport together but you know what, i can handle it...i can handle ANYTHING after going to gym every day this week and going to striptease classes last night (we did the librarian moves - funny stuff). i just hope this positive attitude i have discovered stays with me for a very long time!!!!!!!
onto other news: i think i am finally getting over CS but slowly, oh so slowly but steadily. the reason i say this is not because i don't still think about him (i do) and not because i don't love him (i do but its not a holding back kind of love anymore, now its more of a 'he was my first love and for that i probably will always love him) its because i am actually starting to feel excited about the thought of starting a new relationship with some lucky guy.
you see, while me and CS were doing our on/off relationship the mere thought of seeing someone else and even sleeping with another guy made me sick to my stomach but recently these thoughts have beeen cropping into my head and i start to feel butterflies at the mere thought of meeting some great guy and the excitement that one feels during these moments.
so that is why i think i am starting to get over him. its been gradual and a long time coming but it had to happen even though i didn't want to get over him. ever. i truly believe i am starting to get over him just because i can see myself dating someone else one day and sharing my ever so slightly kinky ways with him!
so go me!
p.s. i might be seeing CS tonight because we play sport together but you know what, i can handle it...i can handle ANYTHING after going to gym every day this week and going to striptease classes last night (we did the librarian moves - funny stuff). i just hope this positive attitude i have discovered stays with me for a very long time!!!!!!!
posted by TwoFlower at 2:32 AM
4 Comments:
CONGRATS on the results!!
And, impressive with the gym AND glasses-clad-liberian lady moves. If anything, maybe your happy mood is caused by those endorphin things that take over when your body is too much pain.
And, it's all about the kink...
Yay... I am soooo happy you are making progress, and you are 100% right this means you are moving on..Clickity Click
Ummmm....I know I've been in a work induced coma but WTF is the librarian move?????
PS good girl on the whole CS thing xx
the librarian move is from my striptease class...i seem to do this routine when i get drunk now! oh goodness!
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