circus of friends
take last night for example. a friend organised drinks and i caught a lift with him and we were the first to arrive...as per usual. anyways, he goes to draw money and i find us a large table, order myself a castle and then sit patiently for his to come back. he comes back, but with CS and floozy behind him. great. now its just me, CS, her and my friend. i smile brightly and welcome them and say how its so nice to see them while inside i am laughing to myself because, and i don't mean to be nasty, but she really is nothing to look at. i tell them how i'm halfway through my thesis, i tell CS about my cat who is very sick and then that was about it. i am now drumming my nails waiting even more patiently for capboy to arrive.
he walks through the door, and he is looking as hot as ever, CS turns to see who i am smiling so lovingly at and then he turns back to look at me and i ignore him while my eyes trail up and down CS's body as he walks towards me. apparently CS was throwing daggers in capboy's direction the minute he walked in the venue....ha ha ha ha! so petty!
capboy sits down next to me, gives me a kiss hello and then, i was very impressed, makes an effort with everyone he meets while his hand is on my leg. CS sees this and all of a sudden him and floozy went from looking as if they didn't know each other to a married couple. myself and a few of my other friends had to stifle a grin and a giggle!!
but i must say, office floozy while not being very attractive seems to be very sweet, shy but sweet. and i suppose i can be intimidating to a normal person - here she is trying to impress my (and i suppose CS) friends even though i'm sure she knows that most of them know what she did to me last year with CS and then being used by CS this year. i would not like to be in her shoes, purely because i couldn't handle people saying things about me behind my back and knowing that what they say is true...
so all in all, i'm feeling pretty good about myself and my life right now!